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If only you could if only look at everything if as if yours if you could only see everyone and everything if on earth as yours if only every happiness or grief if every naked body every naked soul if only that you could be as benevolent as a daffodil.

If you could only realize all these terrifying people are dying alongside you if your repertoire could run to this could expand just a little bit darlin to include those unbelievable flying fish in those unbelievable cities if you could entertain the fucked up flying fish if the flying fish could still exist maybe then but let's not kid ourselves still probably not.

If you could find your way back into Walt Whitman's washing machine if you could only crawl inside it even if only during a rinse cycle.

"If you don't like my carnage, why did you come into my butcher shop?" is not a particularly good sentence to open a romantic relationship.

If you didn't always disbelieve things happen all at once you could be a writer. Nature told me to tell you.

If the line if the point if the three-dimensional solid if the hypercube if the tesseract if language can be all these almost things if language disbelieves everything happens all at once and puts an elevator in the middle of the ocean billions of years ago something has been shattered and it is funnily called time.